THERE IS MUCH MORE THAN SILENCE
Living with social anxiety is hell, it's like living your whole life feeling like everyone is criticising you,everyone is watching you and everyone is just waiting for you to fall so they can laugh at you.
simple things in life that nobody thinks twice abt doing makes you want to just sit and hide in your room for the rest of your life and not having to meet anyone ever again.
walking down the street by myself feels like everyone passing by and every car is judging you. Getting ready to go out feels like getting ready to go to a battle. Being in public feels like I'm holding a sign board written look at me judge me make fun of me. Feels like everyone is just waiting for you to trip so they can laugh at you.
can't do the easiest things can't start a conversation first someone has to start it and if they don't then their won't be a conversation which sucks because I lost a lot of friends because they think I don't talk to them first but I do but I just don't know how it.
when your teacher tells you to find a partner and your heart sinks constantly feeling judged continuously being sick to your stomach and cancelling plans last min worrying about being annoying and everything every little thing.
knowing the ans but letting someone else take the glory.
It’s not a choice to have anxiety. Telling me, calm down, don’t worry about it, don’t stress, doesn’t help at all. It only shows me that you aren’t taking my anxiety seriously. Anxiety is real, and panic attacks are terribly embarrassing and scary.”
I’m not trying to be stuck up or disrespectful when I decline to go to your event.”
“If I’m at your event, you are special to me because being an introvert and having social anxiety, I choose my battles.”
I wanna scream I wanna shout and I want to socialize but I can't. Being in the centre of attention sucks.
Being called rude,overreating,mean ,boring, weirdo.
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE.
Afraid of crowd, party, conversation and even talking on the phone.
I don't think ppl realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally so if you've done that I'm proud of you.
you're not alone, anxiety wants you to feel that way it wants you to think you aren't OK I know the billion thoughts going on your head are overwhelming. I know you are sick and tired of feeling exhausted after doing anything outside the house because your mind is screaming. over thinking what you just said . "Talk less.. talk more the constant battle.
Going home at the end of the day is the escape the safe place where you can't be judged for being yourself.